I just need to feel again. To really breathe and experience life in unique ways. I’ve never wanted to a person to leave others broken hearted, somehow I’ve been ok being the person that could be left broken hearted. I’ve made it ok for me to take emotional and mental hits and keep moving. This moment in my life, I have some control now. I can breathe a little. Life can and will deliver gut punches. People believe you can take them because you have been with little complaining. Sometimes you have to be quiet and focus on yourself. Healing takes time. That’s the best gift you can give yourself. At the end of the day, you can only change yourself and wish for growth for others. The road is long and the path isn’t clear but stay the course because you’re worth it.
Every single day that you wake up and you’re in love is beautiful. It’s also another day in the minefield of things that could explode. Often times we only consider the happiness and joy of love. We fail one another when we don’t consider how impossible it is to not let another person down. To not be terrified of being hurt. To not process our emotions, speak our deep hurts and heal our traumas. We fail one another by thinking that we are best suited to walk this journey alone and if someone wants to walk it with us they must get behind us because beside us isn’t available due to Damage being our right hand. That comfort zone that we all run to when things don’t go our way, get complicated or are more than expected.
Just because we dropped the ball doesn’t mean we can’t pick it back up.
Humans are flawed. Love is intricate. Love is also easy when people are willing to do the work. I sit in my new belief and firmly attest to it. People may love differently but all of us are capable of altering that way if we truly love another by opening our hearts and choosing to do so. We chose how successful we become by doing the work and making sacrifices, love works the same way. Life is about growing, making mistakes and learning from them.
Be open to learning new ways of love. There’s never just one way of doing things. We not only need other people but we need real, solid and true connections.
Day by day, each and every one of us has a struggle. There are no small struggles. It is not selfish to want to make yourself a priority, it is necessary. Self-care is key and understanding what you want can be just as important as what you need. We go through so many things we never share with another soul, that could cause us to suffer in silence and be alone in the midst of darkness that most wish to never encounter. All those thoughts, fears, pains, feelings… just let them pour onto the paper. I’ve included what I call, “Tarah-isms: Food for Thought” to hopefully provide some motivation, comfort, support, insight and solace…..
How to get the want
Let me first start by saying… I am not feeling this semester! Like, seriously! It’s a ton of work, but I’m capable of it. It’s normal to just be over it, right?
See, instead of finishing my homework… I’m blogging. Ugh! What do you all do to stay focused on a day when you’re not in the mood or just tired? Music, food, text, coffee… Have your eyes ever been so dry from reading that the eye drops burn? 😂 Yes, that’s where I’m at now!
Ok, enough whining! The reality is, in my case Graduate School is necessary for my next professional goal. Do what it necessary to succeed! I can do this, remember how I just told you to be your own cheerleader? Time to break out the pom-poms!
It was so nice talking and having you all there to listen! Time to hit the books, but first I’ll grab a snack and some tea!
Until next time…
I’ve added yoga to my life and it’s amazing how life changing it has been! It’s honestly a whole experience. It connects your mind to your body and believe me, it’s quite different to be connected with yourself.
Life delivers unexpected transformations. You begin to realize that some wants have become needs and you take chances more frequently. Stop waiting for it to happen and make it happen. Life’s too short. You never know the outcome, but try it. You may love it and find it unforgettable! 😘
The plan that you may have had for your life is somehow off track. Fix it! Remember being a teenager and thinking “as soon as I grow up….”. You thought you would have a career that would allow you live in different states and even countries, just to jet set and live life with no burden. Once you’re ready you decide that your going to get married and have 2.5 children and a dog with the white picket fence. This is after you finished jet setting 🙂
Strangely enough those things are well planned but rarely do they happen that way. This day has showed me how some do not quite appreciate their lives and grab life by the balls! No matter where you end up in life, its all about what you do with the time you are given. Be happy with where you are, and learn ways to become proactive instead of reactive. If you want more out of life, just push forward. Opportunities are out there, they just have to be found. I love to meet new people because they give me new perspective. Never think that you can not learn from all types of people. I enjoy picking the brains of great minds. Successful people drive me to be the best me. In order for me to be the best at my craft, I must do what’s necessary to perfect it!